We know so little of the Human Condition that we are still children of the science and the art of drug use. However, with respect to one’s self, only the still small voice of one’s conscious, or the voice of their Holy Guardian Angel, can be of help here. Too many times I have been on the edge of a nightmare from drug addiction. I loathe this fact. But, personally, it is true. If I ignore this then I am in danger of validating my own insanity by doing the same thing with expectation of different results. That said, however, some take great pains to come to their own revelations.

Where love, as a law, comes into effect in my life is when I have found myself to be engaged in the discovery of myself and my True Will. Sure, this means that I have used many drugs. I wouldn’t change that fact. I have learned a lot about myself and my True Will that I otherwise would not have learned were it not for drugs.

Certainly, I wish that I could say that this has not caused some little pain to those whom I love and whom love me. This again, is a fact that I wish I could say is not true. Yet, it is. This is sad.

The joy lies not in the price we pay for exploration into the unknown, for the most part, world of drugs, but in the hope of finding that we are biological creatures who interact biologically with the world in which we live, move, and have our being. This fact almost necessitates that we will all, one way or another, come into contact with drugs. Drugs will be. We each have a faculty to know where this fact is in harmony with our True Wills, or were, like The Master before us, we have exceeded ourselves on occasion.

My advice, for what it’s worth. Look without. Look within. Find the balance of what is right for you. Accept only your True Will as your guide in this infinitely deep subject, and follow its lead.

Know your True Will.
Do your True Will.
Be your True Will.

And Our Lady of the Stars be with you!

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I have purposely overdosed on every drug mankind has ever discovered, innumerable times at that, save for huffing and certain Phenethylamines. The former due to the formation of a migraine at the mere thought of such a dizzying buzz, and the latter due to the fact that their are hundreds of them already synthesized. I had the first glimpse of My Holy Guardian Angel whilst under the influence of 1680 mg. of Dextromethorphan, and completed The Knowledge And Conversation when on 350 mg. of Adderall. I attained Samadhi the first time after consuming 1/2 oz. of ridiculously powerful Psilocybin Mushrooms, solved the Qabalistic “puzzle” in Liber AL vel Legis, II:76 while stoned out of My mind from multiple 1/2 g. gravity bong hits of extremely potent Marijuana, discovered the True meaning behind the traditional Masonic symbol while smoking a bowl full of 2.5 g. of Crack, and again attained Samadhi over 30 times in one hour while meditating under water in a pool, on copious amounts of Psilocybin Mushrooms, Cocaine, Marijuana, Cognac, and Dextromethorphan. I’ve been chain-smoking Tobacco for 21 years; smoked Marijuana almost daily for twelve years; was on Adderall, Cocaine, Methamphetamine, Crack, and other Amphetamines for over eight years; shot Heroin, Oxycontin, Morphine into My veins for over four years; and drank at least 100,000 oz. of Beer, 20,000 oz. of Wine, and over 30,000 oz. of Liquor in just six years. I have as well taken a low estimate of around 30,000 mg. of every known Opiate, roughly 30,000 mg. of Methadone, about 5000 mg. of Benzodiazepine, and well over 50,000 mg. of Dextromethorphan. On top of all that, I’ve consumed over 200 pills of Methylenedioxymethamphetamine, over 150 hits of Lysergic Acid Diethylamide, over ten lbs. of Psilocybin Mushrooms, over 30 doses of Mescaline, over 30 trips on Phenethylamines, over 50 hits of Salvia Divinorum, over twenty trips with Dimethyltryptamine, and at least twenty hits of Methylenedioxyamphetamine. Despite the supposed “perils” of drug usage, I have been able to quit every possible addiction cold-turkey as though it was nothing at all, and My mind and body are as sound and fit as a combination of a Chess Grandmaster and an Olympic Marathon Runner.

Love is the law, love under will.